My Feelingz Pt1

Been holding on, how long will i continue to? Even the most faithful of wives stay patient but under the dangerous tense guise of temptations, they lose that grip on faithfullness. I'm human, obviously i've been in relationships and cheated in some, judge me not, i'm human but when one decides to go straight and isn't encouraged in that good way, the thoughts of negativity begin to flow in.. I tried, God knows i did try but i guess my best wasn't good enough to hold on longer.
There's rily no point holding on to something or someone who really wants to be free. There's no point tryna be cool when it ain't all working out.
In as much as i feel empty most times, live goes on... Welcoming myself fully to this new phase of life. God be with me.. Amen

Control

In just a lil while of ma existence on earth, I think I've learnt some major things about control especially in the department of Attitude and Temper.
Me being who I am really don't find so many things funny and can be quick to erupt and pour that larva on someone nearby but I've come to find out that those who end up suffering the hurt of what someone else did to me are the ones that totally don't deserve it. Transferred agression is something that gets the better part of me so I've learnt to stay quiet and say nothing or almost nothing when I'm in that crazy state of anger. Cos in as much as the real & hard truth is spoken when one is angry, harsh and irrational decisions are made too and its better not to judge one or make conclusions when angry cos the effect may never wear off in a life time.
I've had a couple of friends I've lost and in as much as I still think of them once in a while, sometimes I just say "let sleeping dogs lie" but its a thing of the heart and if I've ever hurt you as a result of my temper, I'm sorry.
We all strive to be better people on a daily basis, I am too. I'm human and I have flaws, we all do. Let's learn from people's stories and let it affect us positively. Remember, Experience can only be the best teacher if only you learn from it. God bless us all. Amen

Lies

In every facet of life, liars are bound to come forth.. You'd be suprised at the kinda lies people can tell. I mean, you meet a girl and she tells you she lives in one of the main high brow areas of the state whereas, she lives in a shanty barchar somewhere tryna survive each day with family and a few cousins living with. I mean, why lie? As humans, we can always do better and in every situation, wh always have options. God himself establishes lies as a sin so why partake in the certified known wrath of God by trying to decieve people in the name of getting better recognition? We ain't perfect for sure but we can strive to be like God. Afterall, we are made in His image so we have every opportunity to be the best which He has destined us to be. Trivial things as little as lies take us farther from actualizing that desired prosperity god has for us. A word is enough for the wise. Most of us have this problem, let us take a minute to talk to God to grant us the grace to live aright. God help us all. Amen

R&B diva: Mz Saeon

Born Saeon Oni, popularly called MzSaeon just as the twitter handle states is a fast rising R and B diva springing up from Nigeria. Yes, our very own Naija. This Sexy, Tough, Sassy, Burlesque, Beautiful; to mention but a few qualities has carved a niche for herself in the Nigerian entertainment scene with a couple of hit tracks to her name. Its one thing to hear a song and another to hear and ponder on a good song. Saeon's voice is one that would keep you going on repeat without even knowing it. Appreciate this young sister and management headed by JRS by downloading her tracks
Fever: http://t.co/WWxfROt
I'll be gone: http://t.co/zTWX9Nx
Recover from you ft. Falz: http://t.co/JcudWB2
Foreigner by Blackmagic ft. Saeon: http://t.co/1IuklDr
For other tracks and links, follow @MzSaeon & @Jay_aR_eS on Twitter. Support good music and appreciate hardwork. I love good music #TeamSaeon

Cynthia Morgan gets us ROCKING with a new Track "Right Move"

Pop and dancehall diva, Cynthia Morgan aka
Marshall Morgan's passion and love
for music started since childhood. She started
recording professionally at the
age of sixteen and grew up singing in the
church choir.
Cynthia Morgan is a song writer, composer and
also plays the talking drum. She started
composing at
age seven. She recorded her debut singles at
age sixteen, started getting airplay and
interviews on local radio stations in Benin
before moving to Lagos.
She has performed alongside Sound Sultan,
General Pype, Ajuju, R2bees, Nyore, Mo’
Cheddah, Nikky Laoye, BB, Ahionye, Goldie,
Lami and other top Nigerian artistes.
Right Move is her new song, an appetizer from
her debut album dropping soon and she gets it
right on this one. Download track (Right Move) here 4shared.com/get/QQipFATC/Cynthia_Morgan-Right_Move.html?tsid=20110903-101815-3f9008b2

Over for now

finally, i've come to the end of this road and part of ma life for this year, waking up from ma bed this morning at 5:47am, i just had to say a quick word to the Man above and think back on all the times and events that made this period worth the while. Definitely, i'd say it wouldn't have been complete without some key people in the picture, these people made me realize that struggle never kills, it would just weigh you down. I appreciate all the help from y'all, God bless you.
It was indeed a very trying period for me, the bad news, the foul talk, quarrels, the trips to solve issues, the times i got impatient, i just thank God its all over for now.
This is a new phase of life for me now and i ask the Man above to continually guide me through as i make decisions. Amen

Done

I'm not superman, I'm human. I have more sources to a kryptonite effect on me than one. I bleed when I'm hit and bleed even more when ma emotion is stabbed. Yes I can be irrational, over bearing & jealous. Incase you don't know, that's why I'm human. I trust no one but maself, yes I'm stubborn, helps me bring out the worst in people by pushing them to the edge. I'm not too good at asking questions cos I'd rather not be lied to; especially when emotions are involved.
Yes I may judge you differently.... Fuck being friends, I'd judge you if I have to bring out the truth and rub it in your face so you be conscious and not wanna do it again. You may hate me for it but that's me, my method and ma life.
I may be overly expressive and rub certain things in people's face but as of now, I give up. Yes, ma insides that used to feel quite colourful now seems to have one colour lasting several hours then switching as ma mood switches. Ma life is far from solitude, I still have a couple cheerleaders on the sideline bringing forth the ginger but to what purpose? Ma girl Ginger said "dude, you are young. Its cool to be you but don't take too much of the wrong things to heart". That's all I've been doing.
I'm done feeling like superman, no more knight in shiny armour effizzy, as superman, I played ma part but even superman didn't know everything + he couldn't save everyone at once. Once in a while, somethings still happened unnoticed. This aint about throwing in the white flag, this aint about phone calls, this aint about touchy words. I'm done being a super hero, whatever becomes of the city, I really don't wanna care cos ma city never really felt ma importance when I was just simply doing ma job.
No white flag but I throw in the towel, Mel signing out