My Boxed Up Self

damn it....... Feels like its all for no reason but it sure has a root, a cause and a particular goal... Dear reader, been a while i poured out ma heart to someone who even cared to read.. Its been about 15 days of hard thoughts, crazy conversations and mind revealing occurences in my life.. So much hurt has been going on, just seems nothing is going good at the moment for me. Tried distractions, the longest sure didnt stay up to a week. Now, all these made me wonder; should i just retire and be a nun or confess my sins to God and go register in a covent or something? Do we even have covents in Nigeria? This life is nothing but a road filled with pieces of shattered glass and thorns for me. I wanna retire.. This week was worse, this weekend has surely been the worst. Making plans and everything failing at the very last minute has definitely not added to the list of fun things i've been in. Its even worse when one's account is way on the opposite side of flourishing. Too many thoughts and assumptions flying aroung in this head of mine, its not about making it up, can never be like the first time one thinks about it all. Signing out now but i gotta say, it sucks being where i am, living where i do, having the things i have and being in d box that i have been placed. Only time will tell for sure