My past 15 Hours

The past 15 hours have definitely been something of a memory for me to keep for a while. Didn't take me till now to understand that i can really be overbearing but i just never knew i could be quite annoying for tryna stand by my convictions and do what i feel is right.. In the past 15 hours, i actually came to find out who my real friends were to an extent, those who pretend to have my back and those who would flee at the slightest provocation.
I guess it really takes heated situations to really bring out the real side of people cos what you think definitely would reflect in your speech and actions.
Somehow, i feel a lil bit of everything.... Hate, disgust, remorse, funk, sadness, revenge, fulfilment, happiness even stupidity and betrayal. All these, all in one super body and brain.. MINE!!
In the past 15 hours, i have concluded unjustly, made irrational decisions, offended man and God, caused some people pain and hurt, made some extremely happy and achieved one or two things but that still doesnt change the fact that i'm not totally happy.. Everyone wants to be happy always but in life, sadness is very inevitable unless you operate on a very high level of christian spirituality cos according to the bible in Joel 1 vs 12, it says ''the vine is dried up and the fig tree wasteth, the pomegrante tree and the palm tree also. The apple tree and also all the trees of the field are withered because joy is withered from the heart of the sons of man''. So, once things go wrong, we humans are bound to get dampened in spirit, soul and body but if we can brace up and take steps to making the day better, we may just save all the other areas that seem weak and save us from total depression. Though my past 15 hours have been somewhat bad, i won't sit and let fate play its role, i refuse to be sad. Writing this is enough joy to me cos i know i'm speaking out to someone's situation. God help us all. Amen